Because I'm the Mommy

4.) Blast from the Past: What were you writing about last year at this time? Tell us what has changed (if anything) since then.

     The problem with this prompt is that I didn't have a post this time last year. I was on break. The closest I have is my New Year's Resolution post, a space filler or a Christmas, Living! (On the Cheap) (which you really outta check out) so I decided it was time to give an update on my resolutions. ~~Ya know, since it's almost time to create new ones. Nothing like being timely and all that.~~

     And to make an announcement....

     No I'm not pregnant! Let's just get that outta the way up front. ~~I can't wait until I am too old for people to automatically assume that I'm PG when I say I have an announcement.~~

This is one of my lovely new
"Mommy friends". Doesn't she
have a beautiful family?

     Last year my overall goal was to make myself a happier, healthier, more well rounded person and in several ways I succeeded. I found some friends--close to home. I drank my water and I took pictures, beautiful pictures. Those things made me happy.
     But the way I handle stress hasn't improved and my health has suffered. My feet hurt--constantly. Sometimes to the point where I hobble like an old woman. My back hurts--always. And my jeans just keep getting tighter.
     I still yell and I don't want to. So sometimes I stuff the frustration down with food. ~~Mostly because booze and pills are too expensive.~~ And still my jeans get smaller.
     It's time to get real with myself. I can't go on like this. So starting today I am taking control of my weight, but I realize that I have said this before and I've tried this before. But I've always done it secretly. Quietly. On the sly. Never before had I let the entire world (or at least my little part of the blogisphere) into my refrigerator, into my addiction. Today at 9:00 AM CST I will join my local Weight Watcher's chapter and step onto the scale. After the meeting I will come back here and update this post with my weight. That's right folks. I'm going to tell you what I weigh.

A few things to note

I don't want to be super thin. I honestly don't even care what my ideal weight is supposed to be. I want to be a size 12. ~~I will settle for a 14.~~
I am currently a size 24.
Within the next 2 years I want to run ~~a marathon~~ ~~a half marathon~~ ~~a 5K~~. I haven't run in years. I also want to take a bike ride through my town.
I want to avoid the currently inevitable diabetes, high blood pressure and high cholesterol that runs in my family.
I am terrified that if I do lose the weight that I will be left with SO much excess skin that I will be disgusting to myself and others.
I'm actually scared I will succeed in losing the weight and I still won't be happy with my body.

So there it is folks... the world as I eat, I mean see it.

Wish me luck on this new journey.
Peace (On Earth) out!

Current Weight 309.2 lbs

It will probably be after 11:00 CST before I get my weight up. I have some kid running I have to do. Check back at lunchtime. Or you could follow me on Twitter because I might be persuaded to tweet the results before 11.

And as always (on Thursdays) this post was inspired by Mama Kat's Pretty Much World Famous Writing Workshop.

Help me keep an eye on my Resolutions! Follow the Series.
Resolution 2011--All for a Better Life (With Children)
Resolution Update 2011--Week 1
Resolution Update 2011--Week 2 and 3
Resolution 2011 Update--January to Present

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