I'm just frustrated. I've had a really dramatic weight loss thus far. I'm down better than 10% of my original weight--over 30 lbs! That's wonderful! I've worked hard to get here... and now... I feel like I've hit a wall. I'm frustrated. I'M. SO. FRUSTRATED.
I wonder if my problem is mental. I'm obviously overweight for a reason. There's obviously a mental disconnect. Otherwise, why can I stick to a "diet" for a couple of months--with zero issues and then for no reason at all, I just can't do it anymore? What is it in my head that needs me to put up these barriers? Because I know that that's what this weight is, a barrier between me and everyone and everything.
I know that I would be happier if I were healthier. I know that I would feel more confidant about myself and my abilities if I were healthier. I know I would be healthier if, instead of stuffing whatever is keeping me from reaching my goal weight, I felt it and yet I turn to food.
And I also wonder if this is just my body readjusting to my new weight? Based on other times that I've lost weight, I know that I often reach a point that my body seems to need to regulate itself. I plateau for a couple of weeks and then start losing again. Maybe that's all this is....
The only thing I am certain of is that trying to lose weight sucks and that sometimes I just want to quit. Like constantly. But then I look at myself in the mirror and I can almost see someone that I remember. I want to see that person again. It's been a really long time since I recognized myself. Too long. It's time to win this battle.
Current Weight: 277.6 lbs Weight Loss: 31.6 lbs
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