But seriously, I have a couple of things on my mind right now. Both are absolutely terrifying to me, neither one is something I can back out of (no matter how hard I try) and both are really necessary to my development as a photographer and as a blogger.
The first terror inducing experience will occur this Saturday. I will be photographing my first wedding.
As in I'm the LEAD photographer.
As in it's all on me.
As in I'm Freaking the FREAK out!
I am not a wedding photographer. I don't want to be a wedding photographer. I never intended to ever be a wedding photographer! Yeah, I'll play second photographer or even "lovely" assistant. I will edit wedding photos all day long. But being lead was never something I aspired to.
But then my friend and family photographer asked me to shoot his wedding. *sigh* I love him. I truly want him to be happy. I was flattered he asked me.... So I happily said yes. And shortly after agreeing to this I realized exactly what I had agreed to do.
You see there are a few reasons why this situation is really my own personal version of photography hell. One, the wedding is indoors. I am a natural light photographer and although I do lots of shoots indoors, it's all about finding that "natural" light. I can't very well ask the wedding party to take five steps nearer to the window, can I?
|Here's the lovely couple. I did their engagement shoot. Aren't they gorgeous together?|
I have recently bought myself a tripod and a camera remote to help remove any