It seems like recently, all I have been doing of late is looking for friends in all the wrong places apparently. It's an unending chore skill of which, I seem to be extraordinarily bad at. I don't know if I am too picky or just a pariah. Whatever the case may be, I'm sucking hind tit.
So unfortunately, I recently put all of my eggs in the proverbial friend basket and now I've come up with Jack Tac-O. I mean, I have friends. In fact I have a really great group of girlfriends that I've had for about a decade now. They're wonderful and I know if I ever need them, they'd be here in a heartbeat but they live uptown and sometimes 30 minutes might as well be 4 hours. I also have a wonderful group of online friends that are supportive and "get me". But I may never meet any of you for real. I don't even have anything but an email address for most of you. I want to be able to hear a voice talking back at me, without figuring out time zones and international rates. I really want someone here--as in where I live. Someone that I could call up and say, "Hey, wanna grab a cup of coffee?" I joined a MOMs Club, (which I highly recommend) but our school schedule this year just isn't jiving with the events. So here I am, sitting here wishing that I had a friend to talk to.
I thought that I had found the ONE. That friend that was going to be with me from here on out. The Louise to my Thelma--minus the whole going off the cliff thing. But it's not working out. Part of it's me; I'm not willing to do the work. I spent a large part of my post collage days chasing friendships with people that weren't as "committed" as I was and now I'm not interested in even doing the minimal. And part of it's her; we are in wildly different places in our lives, with vastly different backgrounds. And the bitchy, catty shit is just too much for me. Is it wrong that I feel like if I have to live your drama with you then I'm not interested? Frankly most of the time I felt like I was just a sounding board to your ambition. 
She's kinda "new age" and there's nothing wrong with that, (Fact is, I used to be too. You might even be shocked to know that I studied with a coven and have explored and studied nearly every major religion.) but now I've got young children and I think you have to have a firm foundation of faith to raise kids on; not something that changes with our ever-changing political climate. It's not enough for me to say live and let live now; I have to have a plan. No offense.I have grown more conservative as I've begun worrying about the state of the world my children are heading out into. I want my children to be accepting of other's belief systems but stand firm in their own. I want children that will guard your religious rights but proclaim theirs to the heavens. I want them to be secure in their faith even while other's question it.
So I will keep hoping (and praying) that that special Momma friendship I'm looking for is right around the corner, and I will try not to be disappointed while I'm waiting. So if you are at or near Podunk, Kansas and are looking for a half-crazed Momma of twins with an autistic daughter chaser, then email me and maybe I can be the Thelma you've been looking for.
Peace Out!
If you too are a little anti-social, you might consider joining a MOMs Club.
And as always (on Thursdays) this post was inspired by Mama Kat's Pretty Much World Famous Writing Workshop.
And as always (on Thursdays) this post was inspired by Mama Kat's Pretty Much World Famous Writing Workshop.
